I've always felt this way but is it because I'm quite bumptious & so far I've been blessed with good health? I'm also more my grandmother's granddaughter than I'm anything else; she refused to attend the 75+ medical checks at her surgery, had her hair done two days before she died - walking to & from the salon & her favourite expression was 'The Magic of Ordinary Days'. My much missed mum died in a nursing home because her cancer had reached her brain, my father was in hospital after having his fifth heart attack & she needed round the clock care. The other residents were all in advanced stages of dementia & these frail ladies, with their empty eyes & incomprehensible mutterings, totally confirmed my horror of all things to do with getting old. I've known really bad times but can't say that I've ever suffered from depression, my feelings this year are common to most of us so that's different. I absolutely hate flying & go into a panic at airports but that's not really anxiety so to read that you have to deal with both is awful & I admire you so much for coping with them. Fatigue must be totally draining & sodding annoying by making everything so time consuming. Can anything be done to relieve such a debilitating condition?
Good grief CC, that's awful.